To deal with such a loss I could not bear
How do you continue to live your life
as though nothing has happened?
In blindness, I flung my heart into the air
But you, who meant the most to me, was unaware.
You saw what I have done and simply
turned your back on me.
You don't seem to understand exactly what I need.
I have always said life was a bit unkind,
Yet I never knew how true this was,
Until the moment I saw you. You, the one
I looked at to change the negative into positive,
Has shown to me you are
no different than all the others.
I asked myself why?
Why was I so blind to how you are?
Maybe this is all my fault.
I know I can sometimes be unclear with how I feel
I may not always say what is on my mind,
Or in my heart…
But you must understand the pain I have felt before.
Because of me, things between us
Will never be the same.
I hope with all my heart that fate
Will set me free
From all the unwanted darkness
That my soul has slowly
began to disappear into,
And all the cold, dark feelings that I feel
Toward all those like myself…
The ones that do not know who they
Truly are.
Written by Angela Ostrander ©1998
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